10,000 Caverns

My neighbor through the woods

has cemented over half his yard

near the culvert, built brick walls

where white oak trees used to be.

I’m not sure what he was thinking.

Proud of his trail cam, he says

he’s a hunter, knows the land.

My neighbor through the woods

has cemented over half his yard

near the culvert, built brick walls

where white oak trees used to be.

I’m not sure what he was thinking.

Proud of his trail cam, he says

he’s a hunter, knows the land.

He hasn’t lived in Tennessee

that long, the state with more

caves than any other. Ground

water seeps up to ephemeral

streams along woodland edges,

finds the lowest point, and I hope

it always will. I don’t tell him this

(he can’t hear anyway, deafened

by leaf blower, chain saw, power

washer). Outside to get a signal,

he shouts into his cell phone

as I imagine the pull from below,

what might sink, yield drop by drop

to limestone, mineral deposits,

stalactites reach to stalagmites

sturdy enough to lean on, pillars

circling dark lakes where pale,

blind fish drift. But water recedes

in drought even underground;

Lost Sea lost sea, 25 feet, then

recovered. So he probably won’t

notice until there’s a real flood.

I doubt he’ll float by on his boat

to save us. The state of things now.

My boots suck through the thaw

as I slog back to the house. In April,

what remains of my tracks will glisten

with tadpoles if heavy rains still come.

 

Note: Lost Sea, a real place near Sweetwater, TN, is a large underground lake in the Craighead Caverns cave system.

Newspaper Erasures as Questions with Answers for Two Cities

I.

 

[Is Coastal Road worth ecology?]

 

we must speak about the land as an orbit an erosion

a map carbonized into the helm of cinderblocks

you are playing with Mumbai like we play a game of cards

I.

 

[Is Coastal Road worth ecology?]

 

we must speak about the land as an orbit an erosion

a map carbonized into the helm of cinderblocks

you are playing with Mumbai like we play a game of cards

 

[ may decongest the city. But people places it will harm?]

 

in a physics class I kept hearing plants

when my teacher said planks

 

[ at a time when fisherfolk, like other communities, struggling to recover the heavy blow of the pandemic. “Had you been there you would have had tears ,” . “I invite come live with us for two days, . not even have vegetables with rotis sometimes.”]

 

the truest sentence is a hailstone.

because the Arabian sea is swallowing our city

where it is being built for wealth regardless of tides

where tomorrow’s ancestors are today’s elusive parents.

my father walked barefoot to a temple several times

to pray to a goddess, this temple is situated upon the Arabian sea

where now my mother’s ashes are mixed with water

in the pandemic in a new country, we move ten houses

in twelve months. our cartilages remember a country

as sponging throbs of firmament emptying into rain

 

[ , an assistant professor calls this a “skewed idea of planning”.]

 

tell me the history which will not be written in books

and I will tell you the cleaving of a family, how it begins

 

[“Our beaches will go underwater, currents will change, shoreline eroding faster, loss of biodiversity, livelihood of fishermen destroyed. an exercise in extravaganza could have been avoided, ,” . “This belief restore nature from every mind, ]

 

my mother’s father was a fisherman, a Koli

with significant ties to water. we all will be connected

to water is a story which will yield a life.

the water turned alkaline, nana, before I could

leave the country. the word for alkaline in Marathi

is अल्कधर्मी. when calling out to God, I weep in Marathi.

 

II.

 

[‘100-year-storm’ batters Mississauga, damage could have been worse]

when it rains, rasped, thunderstorm blur knots

churning the city into water into lake into pond into river

ocular and abject, I remember the Credit River for its amplitudes

of sound, cultivating entire forest marshlands

why are you thinking about wealth with the alliteration of water?

[While storms like the one are rare–the last comparable in 2013–experts say climate change could trigger more temperatures climbing just one degree .]

for two years, the cherry trees have begun to bloom

earlier due to rising temperatures. a congregation of families

will arrive to watch the eighty trees at Kariya Park.

two cities are called sisters. after refrains of fog bridled

into the balconies of high rises, eyelids will sketch pestles

of autumn leaves that surpass an erosive winter.

when I leave a country, the birds meet me in sutures of cities.

[ , the stormwater drainage system more than 51,000 catchbasins, 270 kilometres ditches, 150 kilometres creeks, 81 stormwater management facilities (including ponds, , ) that help
collect, drain, and clean rainwater runoff before it enters Lake Ontario, the source of drinking water.]

 

Two 100-year storms hit our city in a month.

A distillation prayer of an immigrant passes through

widening trees into the greenbelt, exiting the city as the Credit River

takes new forms. With the city changes the country

and then the world. Except water, in its memory

of taking form through rituals against slants of cartography.

I won’t say I have left the Arabian Sea of changing waters.

In his last years, my paati’s anna kept calling God in Tamil.

When I was a girl in a sprawling temple of gingelly oil lamps

I asked my mother if God will understand my prayers in English.

God understands all languages, my mother would say.

Now I pray in malls, parking lots, bus stops, empty rooms.

Through water, I step out of the borders of a country.

If we won’t listen, will water—

will water take formless thuds; throb, ferried into everything,

as if a country as if an unmooring, liquefying into an auspicate

inexhaustible source of oneness?

The Government Will Pay For Your Funeral

death cheapens over layered petroleum / so

dense, fishes come upon land to un-breathe;

so dense: we the humans, pococurante—yet we

light torches for the final act of purification.

death cheapens over layered petroleum / so

dense, fishes come upon land to un-breathe;

so dense: we the humans, pococurante—yet we

light torches for the final act of purification.

 

We pull landscapes into our hungry mouths & spit out

Tiny morsels of heaven. My sister burned the national cake,

 

Becoming the first among us to die in protest. Her spirit hovers

In the pipe network of our bathroom, like a mess of calloused hair,

 

Waiting for another baptism down a historical drain.

 

the earth is a drinker of running blood / and

if we live long enough, each drop of blood

will concatenate, liter per liter,

shape-shifting into black gold.

 

Her skin renders to a dead serenade: unboxing

& unburying each lost soul at organic phases of white sand.

 

She bone-feeds it firm, against iron, sojourning toward light,

& Then down the abyss, against ragged realities of life as a wheel.

 

The axle holds a mound of humus, her ash, while I squeeze extra

Angles into her perspective—her pulse, tongue;

 

Her lips pursed, poignant, relegating to me all that she was—

Even dead; & all she tried to become.

Ocean Vengeance

She drowned & kept

drowning, surrounded by water

like her country

submerged until neither

ghost nor body rose; she became

a foaming of wave,

a froth of tide,

an erased border—

She drowned & kept

drowning, surrounded by water

like her country

submerged until neither

ghost nor body rose; she became

a foaming of wave,

a froth of tide,

an erased border—

 

coming in for those who made

war & marked

graves like hers, who made

missiles & marked

targets like her, who made

ships & murdered friends of hers,

corporate bureaucrats stuffed

with sea stolen profits

in the neon city.

 

She streamed like a signal

through the network of yeoks—

samusil pipes froze & burst;

corrupt men slipped on winking ice;

coastal playhomes went under same

as her. The wicked turned fretful

eyes like dirty coals to sinks & gutters.

 

Water maidens coming for the Earth, they said.

Gwisin coming back to claim the sea.

 

From elderly ajummas in basement hovels

she took the water

mildewing cherished photos, moldering rice.

To canvassers signing up folks

to save the planet, she coalesced

another sip in reusable bottles.

A lost traveler at a mountain stream

swore he saw her, in a school uniform,

pointing the way back home, she,

mercy & wrath in tidal force,

surging—

Green Leaves Against the Wind

They die in the heat, sometimes. They

die in the afternoon sun, they die

beneath the moon. They need

more water, more shade. They

need—

I could feed this garden

with my blood.

They die in the heat, sometimes. They

die in the afternoon sun, they die

beneath the moon. They need

more water, more shade. They

need—

I could feed this garden

with my blood.

It is hard to breathe, sometimes. Weights

press against my chest. I dig

my fingers into the shallow dust

to make room for something green.

Or hold my blood

within my skin

They die in the cold, sometimes. They

die beneath the shining stars. They die

in the dry air, fading green—

Savoring each precious drop.

Something trembles in the earth.

Something shifts beneath my skin.

And feel

My choices, held tightly

in my pulsing hands

the earth stir beneath my fingertips

as green leaves dance against the wind.

50% off Venus Fly Traps

pretty thing come closer

your jaw so tense in the gardening aisle

I brush my knuckles against the

trigger hairs on your mouth, ask about your

waterwheel & sundew cousins,

when you last digested an arachnid, I

admire your hunger, the biology of it,

I read that it takes a tenth of a second

for your teeth to snap

pretty thing come closer

your jaw so tense in the gardening aisle

I brush my knuckles against the

trigger hairs on your mouth, ask about your

waterwheel & sundew cousins,

when you last digested an arachnid, I

admire your hunger, the biology of it,

I read that it takes a tenth of a second

for your teeth to snap

down but you don’t close your

lips around my thumb when I touch you

you like a certain kind of prey

don’t you

but you know your kind are

declining in the wilderness

not enough acid in the soil

we preserve you in the aisles like this one

we keep you alive

get in the cart

show me you’re grateful

show me how you want this

don’t you want something to eat

won’t you

open wide for me

That Time My Grandfather Got Lost in the Translations of the Word ‘Death’

Have you ever seen a behemoth? The ones brought in by the foreigners

after the silent war? I was a boy, eight, nine years old, when I saw it.

Have you ever seen a forest catch fire? Your entire village’s herd destroyed

in an instant? Of course not. The behemoth was eight feet tall & breathed fire.

It’s body was made of metal and painted black. The behemoth destroyed our land,

making it impossible to sow. There was no harvest that year. Do you know what we did?

We built a behemoth of our own. An ugly thing, powered by sunlight and unlike the original,

our behemoth required piloting. I was chosen to ride the thing. It was a terribly tight fit.

But I managed. The behemoth struck me but our machine held its own. When it spat fire,

I shot water from my chest. When it tried to uproot trees, I bound it with strong cords.

I pushed it away, away from the village, deep into the hills. Then I hit it until it fell apart.

That was when I thought I would die. Nobody to help. My own behemoth was heating up.

Do you know what I did? I prayed. Or tried to. But I couldn’t remember the word for death.

I was praying to our ancestors for a swift death but the word was replaced

by the foreigners tongue. Ha. Obviously, I survived. But I sat there in pain and fear,

because they just didn’t try to destroy and steal our land but they tried to take our language.

Do you know what the word for death is? You don’t? Lean closer and I’ll tell you . . . .

P-T

there will never be so many sea lilies.

 

they will never roll like meadows and lace

their brittle eyelash hands, nod

their heads and kiss. their endless

 

fields will smother

on ash. they will bow their necks

and break, the ending world

 

will fall on them like snow

 

soft shards of dead things.

 

one day you will lift

your withered hand and touch

the coffee cup to your paper lips,

and it will shatter at your feet

and that’s

 

all. there will never be so many

of your eyelashes, or the stars.

 

one day you will kiss your dog’s

forehead and leave him with a friend, walk

into the woods and never

come out.

 

one day the sea

will burn, and life will choke

again. buried corpses curdled black

into the slow revenge of

the Siberian Traps. you will hear on the news

everything you knew but

couldn’t stop.

 

the tanks will roll in.

they will bring the villagers

past the barbed wire to see what

was done in their name, and some will cry

some will even mean it

 

one day you

will

 

until then, the asphalt

buckles with dandelions. until that day

you will walk the dog, and brush your teeth

 

and a fungus that eats radiation will grow in

Chernobyl.

 

until you die, and after

there will be your fingerprints

 

scrawled on the palms

of beautiful creatures, loved ones

who will also die,

and what you leave behind

 

will matter, spread like fields

of chipped exoskeletons

across the sea floor,

because to

 

matter

and to last forever

are not the same. after you

 

and after the white rhinoceros, after the

ash kills the lilies and blacks the sky, after

nearly all the sea

is snow

 

there will be the lilac tree

until there isn’t, and there will be

 

another fungus, soft saffron-yellow folds

devouring its roots. there will be

 

little scrambling creatures who rush

into the absences, and after you

they will drink the carbon air

 

and flourish somehow even where

you couldn’t.

 

after you and

everyone,

there will even

 

be sea lilies

 

not so many as before

 

but enough.

 

 

“P-T” originally appeared in SLICE #26.

After Erysichthon

The whole world is a feast of runaway craving,

of a curse that has outrun its uses.

Early on, our ancestors twisted up,

moved root through rock, spread fragile first leaves wide.

All land was new, mountainous, unsoiled.

 

The forests that grew have lasted so long,

spreading across the world at glacial pace.

We stretch and recede, grow up and move out.

Famine and war will parch your lips, drag you

below the Earth where we feast on your flesh.

 

What is breath but the ambrosia of trees?

You suckle our gaseous exhalations.

We wean you down to Hades at your death.

 

Who are these children who warm,

strain, and devour the wide earth,

cornucopia fraying,

desert bursting at its seams?

 

We are the trees who were once never wronged,

not axe-culled, not forced to grow through fences.

The Thunderer and those bright kin alone

touched us, burned us, but we claimed the wide land.

Forgotten myths say we gave birth to you.

 

We danced with Hermes on sloping mountains,

later with Pan whom my tall sister bore.

To me came Artemis’ strict retinue.

We ran in those places no man dared see.

Then your people grew up and tamed the wilds.

 

The gifts we brought you at your birth were myrrh,

frankincense, and storax, life-giving scents

beloved of gods, the sweat from our bark.

 

Erysichthon was condemned

as he felled that first grove.

Its nymph guardian begged, and

sap pooled at her feet like blood.

 

Forests fell back, expanding horizons.

When we seduced you, we brought you to groves,

breathed in the incense and breath you exhaled,

taught you secrets of bees and bitter plants.

You worshipped us alongside stone statues.

 

We know which of you swung the axe to cut

deep into the sap-giving arteries,

your grandmothers and sisters cut to stumps.

This is how we learned how to give curses.

Now all-consuming hunger binds us all.

 

Persephone opens wide arms to those

initiated into mysteries

shining like white cypress bark and gold leaves.

 

We punish with a hunger.

That murderer devoured

until he bit down deep on

his own tender flesh, ripped hard.

 

Our lives stretch so long that none can compare.

Curses work best when exercised lightly.

Torchers of nymphs, bearers of distress, you

smashed so many of us, pried open trunks,

carved once-sacred wood to ford the wide sea.

 

Rage boils thick in our sap when nymphs die.

We witness trunks uprooted, roots twisted

hard from a fall driven by gravity.

More often, they’re intact, dead from disease.

Dryads decay hidden in scrapped branches.

 

What you give the forest opens the way.

Here in mountain places, philosophers

found pathways in sunbeams mottled with green.

 

The hexed consume without end,

now without limit or death.

Their tools extract Plouton’s wealth;

all the world weeps out poison.

 

In perfumed shrines where our secret teachings

saturated air, ground, and cool water,

offerings blackened cave ceilings with soot.

We cannot suckle those who have breath, not

until your hearts root down in awe of place.

 

Make white cakes covered in sticky honey.

Go to the chamber of the ones who dwell

among the countless wronged dead, they who howl,

who listen to sapless whispers of shades.

Pacify them and be made whole again.

 

Come to the mountain, come to the gorge-nook.

The water we pull up through our roots tastes

sweet of nectar and metal, wilds and waste.

 

We repeat the dead ones’ names.

This world is old, the list great,

our curses worn like old silt.

 

We watch all in reflections

metal and glass leave, your eyes

searching, tamed lightning your guide.

 

You linger in pallid storefront lights, dark

patterns ghosting across your distracted

faces, forest yet close. Look up. See us.

 

Sooner or later, your meandering

steps will remember sacred rites once more.

Sooner or later, emptiness will tire

you—you will reach for the wholeness of yore.

The World Ended in Ice

The world ended in ice

as scientists predicted

lab coat Noahs

ignored

as they counted the animals

two by two

into their ark

and lifted off

The world ended in ice

as scientists predicted

lab coat Noahs

ignored

as they counted the animals

two by two

into their ark

and lifted off

 

We who are left

shiver

in the cold

in the dark

in our ignorance and greed

forgotten sinners

with no dove

to fly from Ararat