Not the Bajau Yet

Because I have a large spleen

and can hold my breath

but am traumatized enough

to keep my head swiveling,

I ask Nani, an island child like me,

What’s the most landlocked

state you can live in?

Because I have a large spleen

and can hold my breath

but am traumatized enough

to keep my head swiveling,

I ask Nani, an island child like me,

What’s the most landlocked

state you can live in?

as if being inland and diving

are equal amounts of claustrophobia.

She asks “Is there a lake?

Can I follow a river?”

I say yes.

“Then Pennsylvania,”

she says. “Two hours

from New York

and touching a great lake.

You?” As an American child,

I have no feel for geography

and say “In for a penny,

in for a Pitt or a Phil.”

We laugh as we pull up

on our house, uphill

from the sea. The air,

when marine-thick and tide

low, smells like salt, decay,

and promise. This is home,

but our blood says to make

the stilts strong and tall

for when the tide changes

and the ocean returns.